My love-hate relationship with the gym.....

If you remember one of my goals for the year 2010 is to lose 20 pounds.  About 3 weeks ago my hubby and I decided to sign up for a family membership to the YMCA.  I was really excited, mostly for the kids, so they would be able to sign up for activities. I was also glad that they had a nursery, and that the younger two kids would have someplace to go, if I ever decided to enter the gym.
You may ask, why do I hate the gym?  It's so intimidating.  I hate going into a place where I don't know anything about the equipment. I hate seeing all the people who are already in shape, and I am not.  What if I don't know how to work the equipment?  What if I am not dressed right? Yes, I worry about that.  I am not buying silly little work out clothes! 
Anyhow, we went two days in a row- it was really nice.  The first day, I only walked the track- but I did two miles!  The next day, I asked my hubby to show me how to use this machine that looked like fun- it wasn't! I really hurt after that~ 
Then reality  hit- we are currently 35 minutes away from the Y, and by the time I get all four kids around, and work around our school schedule, I am not in the mood to go to the Y.
Hopefully when we get settled into our rental we will be closer and that will help me want to go.  We had a week of the nasty bug, and we were all sick.  But I am happy to report I have lost 8 pounds so far!!!
I hope to keep motivated as I really want to lose all my "baby" weight.
I would love to hear from you~How do you keep motivated in losing weight or in exercise~